It feels like there’s a sword in my heart, and with every breath I take it just goes deeper and deeper. I miss my mother. I haven’t felt pain like this since I lost my baby. I can’t sleep at night. My thoughts are running so quickly I can’t keep up with them, but they’re all thoughts of my parents and my baby. I don’t understand what the universe has against me…to take both my parents away from me so young. My mom was my best friend. I just can’t Understand why this had to happen. I honestly feel cursed…always have. I need to understand where this came from and why. What did I do wrong?